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Post by Toby Benoit on Dec 16, 2011 18:14:42 GMT 12.75
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Post by Paws on Dec 16, 2011 22:54:58 GMT 12.75
I do not know what is up. WILCO
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Post by OLKoot on Dec 17, 2011 3:36:51 GMT 12.75
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Post by eaglenest on Dec 17, 2011 14:03:51 GMT 12.75
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Post by brittonfaith on Dec 17, 2011 18:17:31 GMT 12.75
Thanks guys. Gimme a few more days. I'll come around to as normal as I can get. Been battling these demons since about '77. Had never even for a plit second contemplated anything drastic or stupid like this before. Well, maybe once a couple months ago when he was home ill. Thank God Mike was home this time! Yes. I had the shotgun and one shell and was headed to the chicken house to make my "escape". Mike had to pry it from me with both his hands to get it from me. Here lately, between the whole family dumping any and all of their responsibilities on me, plus all the other normal household responsibilities that nobody will even try to educate themselves about, "the change", good ol' PMS, and having the entire GD extended family using me as their doormat and scape goat while telling me and everyone for 20 miles around how usless, cold hearted and hateful I am (not just behind my back, but while I'm standing there listening to them tell others)....well, it all gets a little more than I can handle.
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Post by Paws on Dec 17, 2011 22:10:12 GMT 12.75
Faith we an talk about it Monday if you want. You know I won't pull any punches. In the meanwhile remember two things. (1) Jesus promised that we will bear no burdon that we can not handle so when it feels like it is too much, tell Him so and ask Him to lighten it. You know one of the hardest things for a farmer using a horse drawn plow is to quit trying to push the plow. (2) Let it go. Those boys will survive with dirty socks and if they get really dirty they will read the instructions on the Tide. They are grown into real live adults and if they get scrapes or bruises they'll probably benefit more from it than from you running interference. Time to get on with your life and let them run their own. (IMHO) People talking about you behind your back or to your face have nothing better to do than gossip and run their mouths. Of course they are all perfect else they wouldn't be running somebody else down. When they do that let them go too. Pray for them asking that you be granted better understanding of them because they usually have a need to feel superior and the easiest way to do that is to make everybody else feel inferior. Now here is the deal. Even an attempt that looks like you might have come close to thinking about suicide is sufficient to be checked in for observation "involuntarily". If you feel out of control, it would be better to "voluntarilly" check yourself in because an "Involuntary" visit will require the Doctor's and the Judge's signatures to get you back home. See you guys Monday unless you need me sooner, just shout.
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Post by Toby Benoit on Dec 18, 2011 17:33:23 GMT 12.75
Wish I was closer so I could hug yer neck, kick yer butt, and drag you to your knees to pray with me!!! I think you just need another jersey calf and a little shit tween yer toes...it's good for what ails ya! Seriously Faith, I love you and Mike and all of our family here at the OCC...you ever need me, just call!
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Post by brittonfaith on Dec 19, 2011 20:57:21 GMT 12.75
LMAO If you like freezing your nubnubs off while tending to bottle babies, more power to ya! I ain't about to do that no more. Especially at near $100 a bag for milk replacer!! ($17 laying feed is crazy enough.) But the sound of poo between the toes does seem mighty appealing.
It was our Christmas service at church this morning and a couple of the gals did a skit about somebody calling the suicide prevention hotline. It was all I could do to stay put in my seat and not go running out the door screaming that they had my motives all wrong. I was a good girl though. Just pretended like my sugar had taken a nose dive after eating all those donuts before church. The plate full of cookies, baklava and fudge afterwards didn't help matters. I really was out of it then!! Came home and slept for 5 hours.
I'm starting to think that my whole problem is that I try to stay too dang straight-laced all the time. Maybe instead of just making hooch, I should go on a drinking binge and crank the stereo up real loud...well, at least allow myself a little nip. Heck, most of the time I'm too worried about if I may be indulging myself, denying somebody else, or worrying about what the neighbors think that I simply refuse to live in the moment. No...Let's get it right. I'm too worried about what God expects from me to even try to live here on this earth. It's all one heck of a tangled web I have set up for myself, and it appears the only one caught in it is me.
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Post by Paws on Dec 19, 2011 21:01:33 GMT 12.75
Get God's approval for a drunk in writing and I'll support you. There is no such thing as too straight laced.
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Post by gsoflittledove on Dec 20, 2011 7:50:05 GMT 12.75
Prayers and more Prayers. same here sometimes, I go to my gunhouse or to a deer stand to get out of the mess, and have a good talk with the lord. I do have rules . do not disturbe dont come barging in ask for permision. First now have a place thats worm or cool and maby have a special stasch of something you like to eat or a book to read the important thing is somemwhere to go GOD BLESS Bill
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Post by Two Tales on Dec 20, 2011 8:47:58 GMT 12.75
Faith, I see your Totum as the wolf and your "spirit guide" is the owl...what ya really need is a good sweat...to cleans your soul of all the unwanted spirts that have tried to or have invaded your being...I will burn some smoke for you tonight...go out and smell the air it'll have the scent of sage in it...if sister wind carries the smoke, then you will smell it and with that you'll know that all life is good...if not I shall again burn the smoke for you...
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Post by Paws on Dec 20, 2011 14:10:44 GMT 12.75
Faith, I see your Totum as the wolf and your "spirit guide" is the owl...what ya really need is a good sweat...to cleans your soul of all the unwanted spirts that have tried to or have invaded your being...I will burn some smoke for you tonight...go out and smell the air it'll have the scent of sage in it...if sister wind carries the smoke, then you will smell it and with that you'll know that all life is good...if not I shall again burn the smoke for you... I smiteth thee for smoking!
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Post by Two Tales on Dec 20, 2011 14:21:56 GMT 12.75
one of these days I'll explain it to you...
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Post by Paws on Dec 20, 2011 14:28:20 GMT 12.75
Get that grump off your face or I'll smite you again! I don't have a problem TT with following "The Red Road" as long as it leads to Jesus Christ, then God. Smoke, chant, chew peyote, dance, sweat, but remember what Jesus said: "I am the way the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father but by me."
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Post by brittonfaith on Dec 20, 2011 17:50:12 GMT 12.75
I smiteth thee for smoking! So are you saying that God created something "bad"?? If so, it'd be the first thing I ever heard of. (Yeah, yeah. Go ahead and smite me too.) If not, then other than smoking, chewing, or making smoke for medicinal purpose, or a half-azz tea for pesticide purposes, do you have a better recipe for?? I'd love a nice double burly tobacco cheeseburger when you figure out the recipe and methods. Until then, I'll enjoy mine rolled, smoked and with a little menthol seasoning. ROFL (Still smoking in accordance with American Psyciatric Association findings and guidelines to make the voices in my head shut up.)
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Post by Paws on Dec 20, 2011 23:10:55 GMT 12.75
No Maam God created absolutely nothing bad. It were people who messed it up. You will discover passages in the Bible advising that the body is the temple..., to avoid strong drink...., glutony..., excess and moderation..., etc. Whine all you want Faith but I know that you know the links between smoking, chewing, and dipping with cancer, pulmonary and vascular issues. Between us and the fence post if my Mother had not been a drunk I would have made it to term and not a premie of just four pounds and malnourished so bad that I nearly did not survive. I probably would not wear glasses and probably not be a smoker either. You need to quit the weed, period and you know it. So with that I'll go back over here now ad smite you.
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Post by brittonfaith on Mar 12, 2012 16:11:48 GMT 12.75
Not quite sure where to post this without starting another thread. Thought it could be of use to someone.
FIVE FINGER PRAYER 1. Your thumb is nearest to you. So begin your prayers by praying for those closest to you. They are the easiest to remember. Someone once said that to pray for our loved ones is a "sweet duty."
2. The next finger is the pointing finger. Pray for those who teach, instruct and heal. This includes teachers, doctors, and ministers. They need support and wisdom in pointing others in the right direction. Keep them in your prayers.
3. The next finger is the tallest finger. It reminds us of our leaders. Pray for the president, leaders in business and industry, and administrators. These people shape our nation and guide public opinion. They need God's guidance.
4. The fourth finger is our ring finger. Surprising to many is the fact, that this is our weakest finger; as any piano teacher will testify. It should remind us to pray for those who are weak, in trouble or in pain. They need your prayers day and night. You cannot pray too much for them.
5. And lastly comes our little finger; the smallest finger of all. Which is where we should place ourselves in relation to God and others. As the Bible says, "The least shall be the greatest among you. " Your pinkie should remind you to pray for yourself..By the time you have prayed for the other four groups, your own needs will be put into proper perspective and you will be able to pray for yourself more effectively.
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Post by Paws on Mar 13, 2012 2:46:36 GMT 12.75
Isn't that sweet. And you are right about that tall finger reminding me of our leaders.
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